Hello and thanks for reading my FIRST BLOG ENTRY lol:-) First and foremost excuse my often used smileys :-) at the end of [many] sentences. It seems that my sincere honesty, which most always comes from a pleasant disposition, has been misconstrued during most of my existence. I add the smileys so the reader will know I'm not ranting or raving. Once you've read one rant, you'll know:-)
I've started this blog for many reasons. The first reason is that the title of the the blog is actually what the title of my book will be (once it gets published...hopefully in my lifetime). I have a somewhat diverse background which you can read about on my Facebook (where else) info page www.facebook.com/dankababy which I will expand here. Of course we all hope our blogs will be discovered in a similar fashion the way Julie's did in the movie Julie and Julia but if it does not, it still might make a difference someplace somehow.
"I was born a poor black child." LOL, just kidding...that is a line from the 1979 movie The Jerk which seems to be timeless (and maybe not so PC today even though, I think, the entire Politically Correct movement is a bit of a farce). Seriously though, I was born in the former Yugoslavia which during Tito was a form of Utopia for it's residents. Yes, yes, I'm sure some militant fool will read this and disagree but he/she can start his/her own blog. Being an only child and having two loving parents, I had the opportunity to live in two countries (in essence) while growing up. I went to school here in the States and spent my summers in Europe. I was also taught Serbian by my father after school so I am fluent in both languages. Through the years many things have happened where friends and acquaintances have told me I should most definitely document my life. I'd like to think that my book is a 21st century version of Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance which left a great impact on me as did Ann Rice's Interview w/the Vampire and Dostoyevsky's The Possessed. I was baptised by a priest who later tried to make a political statement and was arrested when trying to hijack a plane and crash it into the Communist Central Committee Building in Belgrade (this was back in 1978 waaaay before 911). Later in college I became friends with his son, George, also an only child, who was an amazing person. I met him while his father was in prison, we became great friends and that's when I REALLY started getting into philosophy (Philo=love Sophia=wisdom). George and Sonja were two of my best friends. At 23 Sonya died of walking pneumonia. A year later, George died in a car crash. That is when my search began. I started reading anything and everything I could on philosophy, religion, metaphysics, politics, etc... Please don't misunderstand me here; I'm just a regular person who is proactive. My teachers and friends told me I should get a law degree but try to make it as an actress as well. Yes, I've always had a level head on my shoulders but am a creative soul as well.
The death of my two friends and my reading compelled me to search out people from all walks of life and backgrounds. For some strange reason, everything that has happened has made me not quite fit into the norm and anyone who knows me will vouch for that. I always dated artists, musicians and my favorite, bad boys especially the Serbian and Russian kind. No wonder I'm a single mom lol. In this blog I hope to touch on things that have impacted me -seriously whether the crazy party nights on the isles of Greece, my travels alone through Europe at all hours of the night and day on planes, trains and automobiles (hitchhiking) or the sudden death of my father, the birth of my second child 6 months after that, the birth of my first child, divorce, pain, laughter, anger, sex, drugs, rock 'n roll, illness, suffering through a war and watching my loved ones die or disappear, etc... And all of this w/some philosophy spun through almost every word especially the notion of Nietzsche's Ubermensch who is constantly trying to overcome him/herself and not anyone else. Actually, I think it was Plato (Socrates) who actually coined that thought but Nietzsche seemed to make it popular.
I was raised Eastern Christian Orthodox (NO not Greek or Russian Orthodox but SERBIAN orthodox, which is the same thing just a different language). I went to church every Sunday with my aunt Boja who brought us to the states after she was released from Auschwitz Concentration Camp during/after WWII. She's the one who introduced us to the notorious priest lol. But all of my reading and research has made me more of a spiritual person and all encompassing regarding religion until it becomes obvious that it's political propoganda. In that respect, I like to consider myself more of a Buddhist than anything else. And yes, I too believe that life is suffering however there are so many great moments in life that, being an optimist, way outweigh the negative. Maybe the Yin and Yang truly exist and maybe that is the way the universe works however all "I" know is that the balance is definitely there. That being written, positive things better start coming my way soon because it would appear they are long overdue-that was supposed to be funny:-) We live in a society where things seem to be run by greed and monetary gain, so that's what I was referring to when I wrote that sentence. I'm thankful for my healthy, happy and loving children as well as my mother and my uncle. I have a few good friends for whom I'm thankful as well but that's about as far as it goes. OH, and let's not forget my pet, the first dog I've ever had, VEGAS who is 13.5 yrs old and going to the vet today to have some strange alien growth checked out. Keep your fingers crossed; I'm so freaked out! I love my little buddy so much. My X husband used to call him 1st Runner Up because Vegas follows me around EVERYWHERE LOL!!!! Hey, I guess that means I was the winner of the beauty contest lol. Oh well....:-)
I'll end this first entry here because I have to get my hair done, get to the vet and then out to celebrate a friend's birthday. Can you believe she wants to go out to dinner in BERWYN?!?! She teases me and asks me if I go through withdrawals when leaving the city limits:-) But seriously, why would we eat in Berwyn of all places? And no, she doesn't live in Berwyn:-) K, gotta run. Wish my doggie Vegas luck that it's only a skin tag and not something cancerous. Love to all esp my mom, (dad) and my kiddies. Kiss:-)
